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January 10th, 2007

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July 17th, 2006

03:13 am - Zoe So the little bitch that thought he was so important lost all of his equipment thanks to Kristi and Tenneth. He ran like a girl. Resurrected Kari and the rest. I hope they can stay out of trouble. I'm looking forward to some uninterrupted Valik time. After that maybe I'll be bored enough to go play hero with the others for awhile. I think the Knights of the whatsit want to go and destroy the tree on Celestia. Aside from that, me and Treair were monsters fighting the thing everyone called a Proclaimer. Not much else going on with me. Zoe Draven Current Location: Valik's place Current Mood: bored Current Music: the undead shuffling around upstairs

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July 10th, 2006

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July 8th, 2006

03:03 pm - Angelic Protector's Report Angelic Protector Reis Age: 18 in human years Hair: Silver Eyes: Gold Height: 6'0" Home World: Aetheria Race: Angel Angel Potector Reis' Log: Battle for the Fate of the Realm My duties to the angelic council require me to keep documented instances of battles for the protection of our world. This is the account of the battle against the invading Realmist that threatened our world. We arrived in time to see many other angels and dimensional chains doing battle with the Proclaimers and Enforcers of the Dark Realmist, who battled against Guardian Angel First Class Ellenor Kanonik. He sat astride Jorgamand, the dimension Devourer. Safe from harm. We entered into the fray, myself and my father and commanding officer High Angelic Judge Ezekiel ran to Ellenor's side. Along with the aid of the Knights of the realm, we were able to injure the Dark Realmist to the point of being able to enter into Jorgamand to finish him off once and for all. Once inside, we saw the Realmist drawing power from four crystals. Once we decided to strike against the crystals, we attacked them one by one. However in my haste in destroying one, I found myself being ejected from Jorgamand. Once outside I stood to protect the others and aid in their battles against a particularly powerful Proclaimer. All the while the Demon Anomaly Kaine watched from the sidelines, noting our power. When the battle was over I found myself in possession of an extremely powerful sword of divine energy. The Azoth flows with the power of the divine and I consider it a great honor to wield it. However my joy of recieving this blade was nothing compared to the moment my father recreated my wings. Finally I was returned to the power I once had. My full abilitiesd returned to me I finally feel as if I can stand strong next to my father, rather than behind him. I will continue to follow and protect my father, I will be as his shield. He will use me as an instrument to aid him. I will do my duties to both Aetheria and the mortal realm. I will aid those in need. I will uphold my honor as an Angelic Protector. I think that's all of them.... I never was too good with this Mantra stuff. Oh yeah, don't worry Narissa, I'll be coming home to you someday. And when I do, I'll be important enough to sweep you right off of your feet, you'll see! I'll- *ahem* I apologize for getting emotional in a formal report. Angelic Protector Reis concluding report. Current Location: Aetheria Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Narissa's lovely voice

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02:14 pm - Fools Kaine Age: Eternal Hair: Black Eyes: vary Height: 6'4" Home World: Race: Progenitor of the Demon Race Pathetic mortals. Cry, Despair, wallow in lonliness, for it is your lot. I had only to show images of what you had done to each other to defeat you. I need not raise an arm against you, for you have defeated yourselves. A pity. I so hoped for a climactic battle of good versus evil, didn't you Ryan? Oh and someone may want to crawl out of their misery long enough to stop Razra, she's fighting her way through my army, directly towards my strongest general, you kno him Ryan, the one who killed you? Oh, and to Razra, thank you for the attempt on Sophie's life. If it had succeeded you would have saved me a miniscule amount of energy. If only Ryan had retaliated I'd be down two people I eventually have to kill. It seems so fitting for you Knights of the Realm to be defeated not by me, but by yourselves. I do so enjoy it. At any rate fools, do feel free to come to your deaths at the hands of my army when you are all done wallowing in self-pity. And Vincent, do not study too hard... you will not find anything to stop me. Ruler of Existance, Kaine Current Location: Safely awaiting the Realm Knight's Fury Current Mood: calm Current Music: Pulsing of the Tree of Death

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02:02 pm - Giving the resolve to kill once more Things were going great. We saved the realm from the dark realmist at the cost of many friends. We saved ourselves at the cost of others. I even helped to save Zeke's daughter from the fate that had befallen the dark realmist. You would think things would be happy afterwards. All of this only to find you've been betrayed by those you love. To find that they'd do terrible things to you if they had the chance, or that they really didn't love you. I don't care if Kaine is the one who showed those images to us, I know they're real, just by the way emotions around me changed. I went to stab that little gnome pervert and that idiot Sophie got in the way. She saw what he did and still defends him. She's a moron. For a brief second I thought she deserved the poisoning I gave her. It took all my energy to not turn around and stab that backstabbing fiance' of mine. seeing as he doesn't want to marry me. He lied to me about the happiest moment of my life, and I'll never forgive him for that. Thanks to all this however, and the fact I'm completely alone now, I think I have the drive to kill one last time. I don't care what happens to me, but Kaine will die for killing the only people who really ever cared about me. Not these poser assholes who lie about everything. Razra Havis Jedi Knight Current Location: En route to the last fight of my life Current Mood: Hate for those who betrayed me Current Music: The sound of demons dying

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May 22nd, 2006

10:35 am - Caesara I followed Strega's advice and went to look for the temple in the mountains near the Order of Light on Hyperion. It's been most distressing, everything that I've learned, including the fact that my beliefs were completely and throughly incorrect. I didn't know what to do with myself, and that is why I went. Curiousity, and a need to believe in something. I did the best I could following my chosen diety... At any rate, it isn't really any better at all now. In my followings I lost my appearance, my wings, and now my sight. I've been so foolish... I would love to have the oppertunity that has presented itself to Tenneth. In a instant I would leave this plane of physical existance. I couldn't get that lucky. And I am still supposed to help the idiots. I won't even get into my beloved Xain either. I knew he was lovely but... I'm going to hell. There is no excuse for mortals spending their time being all lovey with... The world looks different without color. But not different enough. Caesara Current Mood: horribly unhappy

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May 20th, 2006

09:28 am - Ethan Everyone is so bent out of shape these days, I cant quite remember a time when they were this edgey before? That one catgirl keeps having a problem with me using my enhanced powers, I don't really know why, shes got PSI powers after all. *Sigh* I keep telling everyone that I'm fine although they think Im some sort of monster just cause I finally have something giving me more power than they have. They are just worried that they can't be as important as me anymore... perhaps I should keep an eye on my back, they might try to remove me. Izumi seems fine though, yep. I had no idea she didn't like my hair spiked up for my Jemma Knight transformation so I'm glad she told me about it. Maybe Izumi will talk to those other people and get them to calm down and accept my new powers. I bet that no other Jemma Knight in history ever was as powerful as me, I can really take care of Izumi and ah... um... the other one yeah; really well now! Just they wait till we can leave Hyperion and return to our homeworld of Yumeria, I'll demonstrate the full extent of my powers! Something is telling me to return to the crater back home; so I guess I'll have to see what it is about that place. Also on my random complaints list, our resident angel eh... whats-his-name, and the short kid that hangs around with Sophie haven't asked for my help against the great dimensional chain destroyer that is coming soon! What are they waiting for?! I can cast realm! I haven't done it yet, but I can do it! Perhaps I'll have to talk to Izumi and ask her to put in a good word to them for me. Finally I have this unnatural want to see Sierra. I mean I haven't really seen her in ages and ever since her one angelic friend ah... Ellen I believe, its just been her and eh... that elf chick doing the work of the Marintel Knights. I should have been a knight for them. A Jemma Knight and a Marintel Knight... I really gotta talk to Sierra about that one. But really though, no one is helping Sierra really. I thought these people were her friends?! Makes me very angry to think that they just abandon her! That short kid is a Marintel Knight I think, so why doesn't he go help Sierra out?! Ungh... well anyways I suppose I should get back to dealing with this crimson snow that everyone is complaining about, not like it bothers me any, and I hate the cold. I really gotta keep an eye on everyone here, I feel that they are conspiring against me, my new PSI powers help this along really. Not to mention that thanks to my wonderful gift of the orb, my PSI powers are stronger than that catgirls. Current Mood: jubilant

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May 18th, 2006

03:07 am - Zoe Tomorrow me Kristi, Tenneth, and surprisingly Almech, are going to go kill the fuck that has Kari. In the meanwhile I had Ryan make me a costume for my assassin work. It's high time I quit playing at it and just got down to it. So I tried myself out against Tenneth. I jumped him when he didn't know who I was, and I think it was fairly even with me at a handicap. He won though, even though he didn't kill me and we both know it. It felt really, really good to have Celestoria blast him. He's damnably hard to hit, even if part of it comes from his creep of a spirit guide and whatever goes on with him. He's not a very good guide at all, he's always telling Tenneth to kill me. What the fuck?! Kalira isn't a fruitcake like that. I feel loads better about my um, condition, now... I'm harder to kill then I thought. I can't wear my new gear everywhere though. Wouldn't do at all to have my costume seen being a freaky do-gooder like most of my friends. We have all sorts of stuff to take care of, including a demon. And fixing Ethan. He has some sort of orb that makes him scary. I don't like it, and I don't think anyone else does either. I do so wish my Ethan could be trusted to behave himself for a few minutes without my being around. ::sigh:: Sophie asked me to her Maid of Honor when she and Ryan get married! I was so flattered... I just hope things don't go, y'know, the wrong way for me so I'll be around to do so. I don't want babysitters but I ended up telling Ryan. I con't even explain why, it wasn't just that I needed him to know that my gear is gonna be important, it'll just be me by myself, it felt right. I feel better having someone know too. I was friends with Ryan right after mom and dad pulled their dissappearing act, and I was staying with him and Aunt Dinare. I hope I get the chance to fix the fact that I don't see him anymore. Damn was that ages ago... I grew all my hair out too. It hangs down past my butt, and I can't decide whether or not I like it. I can't figure out what to do with it when I'm not working, so it's in a braid. Anyway, I'm wasting time I could be using making me a little bit better. Kari is really good, much better then me, and probably better then Kristi. We'll probably need everything we have between us. Zoe Current Mood: worried

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April 18th, 2006

01:42 pm - Zoe Home is almost worse then fighting the great god of light. Celestia is covered with some giant tree that is the doing of Kaine. Ryan and some of the others are going to fight him, and when they go I have to make sure I'm far, far away. I don't want to outright tell them I won't be going, and I can't go. I'll be nothing but trouble, they're all better equiped to deal with him anyway. He's apparently almost godlike in his powers, his horns or something, and I am not prepared to do something like that ever again. He'll kill me, and no one knows that if I die I'm gone. Its scary enough being back to work, I hate knowing that I don't get a chance to screw up, none. It won't be the months it took for me to feel living again once I got home, and I don't have the beginning of runic magic to blast all over some big bad thing again. If I didn't know it would be dull, and cowardly, to do nothing I would simply stay at home. But I'm not a child anymore, if Kalira is correct between my magical schooling, and my time on Earth I'm roundabouts twenty years old. I had thought maybe to return to relying on Ethan, but in my absence Izumi has become a summoner, and her need for Ethan is much greater then my own. He knows I don't like people getting in trouble on my behalf, and now it seems he has a hold over his abilities. That means I'm not going to even have his required protection. I suppose that's why Izumi is a summoner, to balance out my departure, and Ethan's protector status altered accordingly. It's probably my fault Izumi is like that, and I'm sorry. She's really really super nice, and shouldn't need to worry about making a mistake that could cost her everything. I know for a fact that even Ethan can't cover everything. Why couldn't I have come home to some peace?! I spent my days fighting when I could think, wishing I was home. Now some asshole is offing mom and dad's guild, Kari is in his blade, and I don't think I'm gonna get good enough to beat him. He got Kari, who is so much better at that stuff then me, and I only got away because I'm a coward. I ran away instead of fighting. I really am a stupid runt. I need to find something to tell mom and dad so they aren't woried about her. They can't go do anything, the two of them are in the same boat I am. No dying. So it's up to me to keep them safe. I won't bother Kristi about it either, she is with Aunt Rhymee probably preparing for her best freinds' most wonderful day. I can't interrupt that. I'm gonna keep fighting this guy, and I need to find a way to off him quickly. He may not be interested in hunting me, but from here on in, he's my prey. Zoe Current Mood: uneasy and scared

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01:15 pm - Ezekiel The past few days have been great fun! Apparently the beast that devours dimensions hit Palo's and hit it hard. Ellenor says he's been doing well fighting, but both of us know that his dimensional chain, a small girl named Aya, will most likely be staying where she is. With the two of us. I have gotten her moved comfortably into on of the guest bedrooms in my house, and she, Ellenor, and Reis are finally beginning to take off some of the desolate edge being there gives me. I'm enjoying having a child around, someone who's life I've intruded into who I refuse to give any reason to think anything but wonderfully of me. The few days I've spent getting Aya settled I've smiled and laughed more then I have in a few months now. She's so little and sweet, six years old, and when she first came, mute. Due to the mysteries of my cards, I could communicate with her, but even mind to mind she had no voice of her own. It simply sounded like I was speaking with myself. So I had Sophie alchemy a voice into a little gold chain for Aya, which when she put it on and she decided to give speaking a whirl, I almost died of excitement. It worked! Its absolutely lovely, even though Aya is certainly out of the practive of speaking. She smiles too, something else that's changed since she arrived. Of course, no little kid could be unhappy after a day at an amusement park. Ellenor and I were hideously bad there, by means of cheating to get Aya prizes, but they liven up her room some more. If she'll accept it, she'll be Aya Altaire. I've come to a conclusion about Reis though. A few actually. The orb that counteracts the orb of chaos appeared at my place and decided that it would either have Reis or Aya for it's new host. I told it that it was free to leave because neither of them would be having anything of it. There are a great many places in the universe, the two of them can't possibly the only ones who could have had it. But Reis had an arguement, ridiculous child that he is, so he has it. I told him it isn't my problem what becomes of him due to his decision, but it is. I need to get over the part of me that feels guilty being here, in my own house, so that I can competently be a parent. That was an arguement I should not have given up so easily with. In the morning I am going to go visit my own parents and ask them, and after I'm going to take care of the demons raiding the lower worlds. It is more then time I was back to duty over my own personal pleasure. Not that little Aya won't see me, home is home, or at least becoming so again. Perhaps it will never be quite home till I have everyone there. Perhaps I should quit remembering and just continue doing. Ezekiel Current Mood: thoughtful

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April 17th, 2006

10:48 pm - ~Ellenor~ Day by day the great force that has been devowering dimensions has been inching closer to our home dimension of Kappa. Last I was aware it had moved into Palo's governing dimension to hunt down the chain and slaughter the angel. knowing that there was little he could do to protect his chain, he opened a doorway to me and sent the dimensional chain through for me to watch over. The chain was only a small girl at the age of 6 named Aya. She's mute and is usually depressed after watching her parents get killed by the Proclaimer of the dimensional shattering. Zeke and I took her to his place where she now stays. I'm amazingly surprized at how well Zeke has been taking this whole thing, I assumed he would be angry that he was just about forced to watch over someone who couldnt defend themselves or even talk. Also the orb of divinity payed us a visit shortly after that and demanded that it fuse with either Reis or Aya. For some reason I felt soo strongly not to allow the orb to go to Aya, I can't explain it... maybe my mother could tell me more? Anyways Zeke eventually caved and allowed Reis to host the orbs light to counteract the chaotic orb now free in the worlds. Later Zeke and I went ahead and had Sophie and Ryan craft her a simple golden chain with the spirit of voice in it so that she could talk to us normally. Also he cought me off gaurd again with a surprize trip to the Yumerian Amusement Park near Essex! Sometimes even being psychic doesn't help you see things like that. We spent the whole day together, just the three of us. Zeke and I cheated like crazy to win Aya many toys and stuffed dolls so that she could decorate her room! I'd also like to make a point that my most favorite ride there was a bench... cause those rides were scary and too fast for my likings, but Aya really seemed to enjoy herself, and that makes Zeke and I happy. We're going to get her a nice angelic cleric to begin to teach Aya how to read and write as well as some small magics to use if she ever needs them. I'm going to have to take Aya shopping in the morning for some new clothes and a few pretty things for her room and such, my money is not an object to me, I'll spend anything for her happiness. I sware on my entire existance that I will NEVER allow anything to happen to Zeke or Aya! This force is unlike anything anyone has ever delt with before and no one has ever defeated it before... I promise them I'll find a way to keep them and everyone else in existance safe, I'll succeed where all others have failed. I exist anymore only because of Zeke's kindness during that time long ago, I must repay him. On a final side note, I'm going to have to defeat Zeke in these random fits he gets into where he desides its a good idea to start tickling me in my side! Argh...! I can't stand when he does that, cause he's only ticklish in his feet and it's hard to win if he's standing on them! I am sooo enjoying my time around Zeke and Aya now, I haven't been this happy ever! How did I ever convince myself that emotions were useless? I owe soo much to Zeke for unlocking that door for me... Current Mood: Loved & Motherly

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10:18 pm - Ethan Over the past few days I've been rather busy. First I attended the service to say farewell to my loved aunt Mira. Apparently later on she became a wingless angel and became the guardian angel of some dimension that Tenneth called, Mu. Also while they were out dimension hopping, I followed through with my promise to Tenneth to investagate the "Shop" and find out more about them. After some digging and some AGRESSIVE negotiations with some people, I managed to find the secret headquarters of the Shop. So I wandered around in there trying to be sneaky, which eh... didn't work too well. However anyone that saw me was QUICKLY offed and made me place another notch on my kill chart! I wonder what Zoe would think of my secret agent-like mission and how um... totally awesome I was at being unseen...! Lately I've also been doing alot of thinking on many things while I had all this time on my hands. So I had Sophie and Rhyme work on a ring with me to give to Izumi that would react and glow red whenever I was thinking about her. This was naturally a remix of a Steak Knife Metal ring. My presentation of giving it to Izumi wasn't my best... but I can't be perfect all the time... as much as that is a crime to the world cause I'm totally awesome! The next morning we went to the Shop, under my lead of course, and layed waste to the place. I hope that I was useful to Tenneth on this one, the kid has been taking on FAR TOO MUCH work on his plate than he should. Current Mood: Cocky

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April 10th, 2006

07:26 pm - Tenneth Things are going terribly as of late. I cannot even begin to comprehend why things are going so desperately terrible for all of my friends and all of Celestia. Perhaps what Xrafil says about the end of existence having a strong probability of happening in my lifetime is true. Perhaps all this training he's putting me through will truly help to keep everything that mankind has said and done intact. I am very frightened of what this would entail however. The more I advance in the abilities that Xrafil presents me with, the more of myself I lose, until one day my form will completely vanish from the realm of the physical and I will cease to be more than a memory of the material world. I've contemplated several things as of late, and through some insight from Xrafil and other spiritual creatures I've realized a few things: The first thing I realize, is no matter how I fight it, I am Tenneth Snowe, son of Randall Snowe, owner of the Snowe Trading Company. I cannot let my father fall from his stature, nor forget that I am one of the same, the son of a nobleman. I love my father dearly, regardless of what he feels about me being who I am. Once all is said and done I will find my mother and make amends between the two of them. Dealings with this "shop" has finally brought my father's empire crashing down around him. His only response to the 300 Million gold offer for our dwindling shares was to sell, throwing away 20 generations of our family's heritage. I WILL NOT LET THIS SLIDE. I once fought my future with every fiber of my being, however now I find that I must hold on to anything I can with both arms to keep it from vanishing. The second, and most important thing to me, regardless of what is going to happen or what has happened is Zoe. I am completely and madly in love with her. Whenever I think of what is happening to me and I feel myself start to vanish I think back to a moment, after we had just gotten back from guild happenings, where we stayed in bed for almost the entire day, just talking and holding each other and laughing. She is the glue that holds me to this world, and if I could trade my existence to keep her happy for all of hers I'd do it in a instant. She may love Valik with her whole being, and from fighting him in the tournament I know that he loves her dearly, but she will never know how much I love her. I will never allow harm to befall her ever again, and if I didn't believe that Valik is protecting her with his entire being, I would've left for Earth to do battle against the god of light Verkadh with them. Xrafil tells me that she's losing many of her abilities to help destroy this deity. She's completely destroying that rune of hers to aid the others in battle. I'm sure that Xrafil is tired of watching her, but she is so improtant to me, if I thought that I might lose her, I'd be at her side in an instant to take her from battle. I know she hates it when Ethan does it, but I'd rather her live, than die fighting for people who she means nothing to. Speaking of Ethan, my best friend, I couldn't tell you what's going through his mind. He seems so distant from everyone, even more so now that his aunt Mira is dead. I wish that he'd come and spend some time with me. I never see my friend anymore and it kills me on the inside. I see him fighting to protect everyone around him, completely losing himself in the process. He's vanishing just as I am, and he doesn't even see it. No worries though, I'm sure he'll get around to me once he's convinced that everyone around him is safe. I just hope that I'm still here by then. My current matters of interest however are vast.  I've been aiding Izumi in finding more of her guardian spirits of the dimensions, and I found something that I find very interesting. While on the planet Raquia in the Delta Dimension we stopped in a museum of sorts where I heard of a contest of elemental trials of sorts in their Magic City Calin. There has never been a person who passed all of the 6 trials. The closest someone came ( I believe the man's name was Alen, I may be mistaken (((OOC: Damn you chris for changing CK's name))), but I digress) was all but ice. Having a latent inclination against ice, he was never able to overcome the trial. He later won his qualification from a young lady who cleared the ice trial. I think I would do fairly well if I entered their trials. I seem to be the most interested in keeping a balance between the elements. Back to the matters at hand, it seems that out of our collective group I have the least to worry about. Ryan has formed his Knights of the Realm and is training to do battle with Kaine. Sophie is at his side, cheering him on and supporting him in battle to the best of her abilities. I'm glad she's finally happy. They are so lucky to have one another. Vincent is fighting to aid Ryan against Kaine, both for the pain caused to Sophie and Razra. Speaking of whom, Razra is fighting against Kaine due to a terrible occourance in which her entire family, save her mother and father were killed. This happened the day after her and Vince announced their engagement. Aside from the business with Kaine I am very happy for them, and I hope she and Vince can live a happy life. They deserve it. Zeke, or as of late the High Angelic Judge Ezekiel (congrats zeke) is finding more and more to aid him in his search for his wings. He succeeded in slaying Gabriel, putting an end to one of his problems. I hope everything ends well for him. He is truly a good person and I hastily judged him as the contrary when I first met him. I am proud to call him friend. His angel son, Reis is a spitting image of....Ryan? The kid loves fighting demons, and he's good at it. Kudos kid, keep up the good work. Last, and as of late, not at all least: Caesara. She has been so kind to me. She kept me company when I was unable to re-enter my body, and she's been helping me through this astral shift of mine. She doesn't understand my fear of things, but I suppose that's because of her being an orphan, and having to ties to anyone, short of her mentor Sejanes. I'm glad that Xain is with her, because she needs someone to keep her happy, she is much better off smiling, than putting wrinkles in that pretty face of hers by worrying about everything. I owe her a lot and I suppose she doesn't know it, but I'd do almost anything to make sure she's safe. She is another person who has suprisingly become very dear to me as of late. Now all I have to do is wait. Wait until Zoe returns to us and until my eventual disappearance. I accept that it'll happen, and that Xrafil is correct that I will be a very powerful spiritual warrior, however I cannot accept the loss of everything I hold dear, including my body. I will not fade from existence. I will not go silently into the night. I will not allow all my meories and happiness to be in vain. I will fight. I will wage unceasing war against those who threaten my realm, my friends, and my happiness. No longer will I hide behind my name, nor will I run from it. No longer wil I be the one holding everyone back. I will fight. I will help my friends. I will not disappear from the world any more than I will allow my friends to fail. History is told by the winners. The losers are forever forgotten in the sands of time. Everyone else is from a line of great warriors who have done great things. It's time for me to forge my own history. It's time I made a difference, because one cannot truly disappear unless word of their actions and deeds are forgotten. I'm Tenneth fucking Snowe and I will forge a future that I still exist in. Ellenor, you were right the whole time. The day I left for Marintel, things were set in motion. You are a dear friend and I hope for your happiness in the future. Since I know that you know everything entailed in this journal I can say this without worry. I love you as a friend and if you ever need me I will be there for you. Do not fail to ask me for aid when you are in need. Us lonely people have to watch out for one another. Tenneth Snowe Master of his own future Current Mood: determined

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02:29 pm - Caesara I am at a loss as to what to do. The demon Kaine has destroyed most of my Order in one attack. I can't even begin to imagine the sheer power it would take to overcome us in any number, none the less as many as he did. But all of us understand what it means for a demon, the demon, to have his horns. He wants into the Archive, into the amassed amount of information, both good and bad, that people have derived over the centuries. Out of the people I have been travelling with, I think only myself and Xain understand just how poorly thing would progress if the demon were to have his wish. The tree growing on Celestia would be nothing. Yet through this all Vkandis has been oddly quiet, I do not know anyone who has seen anything in their meditations as of late. If this continues we will have to destroy the Archive, the first time the thought has even come up in millenia. And it will need to be rebuilt, like the only other time in recorded history it occurred, out of the minds of those who accessed it, and with the fill of generations to come. It would be the single, greatest waste of such a trove of information. Though he destroyed many, and gravely injured Mast- no, Sejanes now; perhaps Vkandis has been silent because he will not judge the great demon. There are many of us who do not judge good from evil, and take to the light of both sides. Perhaps we are supposed to be doing the same now? But how could I see the beast that almost killed the man that is my only family and not hate him for it? He is a bringer of so much pain. And the Trondrin is nagging me to get back with the goons who are supposedly making history as I stand. I don't see them being many things other then dull and crazy. I would much rather hide out with Xain in his library, making things pleasant for him. He is so lonely sometimes. Why can't someone else be responsible for staying with the idiots? I've never seen such power used almost as a playtoy as I have with them. And some of them don't even realize their own possibilities, like Tenneth. I don't understand why he fights what is happening with him so. The lot of them are infuriating, and they don't even realize they are flailing in the dark. And I am supposed to teach them. Why can't it just be someone like Tre'air or Valik? My rank is no blessing at all. It's given me access to new abilities, but I can't even be around some of the other Priests without hearing about how I slid through the ranks, how I did nothing for where I am. I have contributed more to the Knowledge in the last year them some of them have in thier lives! Not that I should speak so ill of some of the dead... I wish I could comprehend the happenings. Let us hope that I may keep an open mind for a while longer Caesara Dezolan, Voice of the Nightlord Vkandis Current Mood: greatly upset

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01:51 pm - Izumi I'm fucking through with this all. I've tried so hard to be there for him, and when I want him around, where is he? NOWHERE!!! I can't believe I actually CARE about the guy! I mean, whenever I want him around, where is he? UP HIS FUCKING COUSIN'S ASS, THAT'S WHERE!!! I mean fucking hell! Why don't you just go throw her down and fuck her, because everyone can see it's what you want to do. It's not your fault though, incest runs in your fucked up family. Both sides of it. Hell, it even runs in not one, but BOTH of your cousins sides of the family. One big fucking family, right Ethan? I thought this summoner thing would bring us closer together, but instead it's driving us farther apart. I wanted you to be there with me when I went to get my summons, but you abandoned me, as per usual, for your cousin. It doesn't matter that I DIE FOR GOOD if I die. I bet you wouldn't even fucking care, so long as your precious Zoe and Sophie are still okay. FUCK YOU. I'm so angry right now that if you don't fucking apologize for NEVER BEING THERE, I'm going to put you in a fucking crystal and throw you off into space. Not like you've even noticed that you're hurting me... Izumi Current Mood: pissed off

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April 5th, 2006

11:55 am - Vincent It has peculiar as of late. I'll begin with the most impressive of the things that have happened to me. Ryan has apparently decided to alter his generation of the Marintel Knights into something that would be protecting and taking care of everything important to them. For whatever reason, as I'm not sure what it is, he asked me to join and I of course agreed. The others he has are my Razra, Sophie, and Zeke, so we're a neat little group. I understand everone else, they are extremely poweerful with whatever they do, but as of yet I find myself on a fence as to what I do well. I am trying to improve my abilities with spirits, but with my current recruit to the project I don't see that happening soon. It is the bane of my existance, showing up right when I was speaking with Rhapsody about broadening my talent. A little bouncy rodent that makes me worse with everything I do short of being fast when using it's abilities. It makes my hyperactive, and Timba is enough to make me want to pull out clumps of my hair. I do so wish there was anything else overly interesting about to focus on. Rhapsody seems to think the little bundle of annoyance is alright though, and I do trust her judgement so... Other items of interest (I'll be saving the BEST for last), the bastard Ramda, one of the demon summoners, took my mother in order to irritate me, which he did. He hid her behind an army of Kaine's low end demons, and with the forces father and the others managed to rally we had to fight through to get her. The only part that didn't make sense, and still doesn't is that they wanted me to command. I'm quite afraid I don't know the first thing about leading troups and issuing orders, but I think I managed to do well. It was enough that after the fight, when mother was safe at home, that Mr. Draven adn Mr. Kanonik came up to me and offered what respective help they could should the need ever arise again. That was Heroes Landing before the mess on Celestia, and the Guillotine Cross, now that their heads are back in the land of the living. It surprised me, because while neither of them are overly professional looking since I have seen them, mother and father both respect Mr. Kanonik, and everyone has heard the tales about the assassins' guild. It makes them seem all the sillier to me, not to be dealing with someone who really carries some sway, instead of myself. I am apparently slightly more popular in the public eye then I thought, because I found that father, adn occasionally mother have been keeping an eye as to what I've been up to. Father had a FIT when he found out about our fights with Kaine. Uncle Valekai had a similar one, and I haven't heard from Sophie since, so I hope she is okay. At least father isn't blaming everything I've done on someone else, like Uncle is with Ryan. I might understand though, if he sits around and worries like mother. I didn't realize I had her so worried that she would be expecting to need to ressurrect me. In everything I've done, never once have I died so that didn't occur to me. I need to keep my head low for a while until she calms down a little, I think I'm going to go spend the time with Razra's father that she wanted, and to attempt to not laugh about what father said about him. Razra. My beautiful, strong, amazingly competent, and now horribly alone love. I am glad I got to do soemthing nice for her before the tragedy that Kaine caused her came about. A day or so before that happened I had Ryan make a ring for me, made of star-sapphire, that was an image of two holding hands. while I had been going through old texts lokoing for something for father and uncle when they still had their demon problem, I found a old, neglected, tradition that fit with me just fine. The ring I had made symbolizes a number of thing, great friendship, love, companionship, partners, but it always given with a promise. I wanted it for my Razra, and it was given to her with my love, protection should it ever happen to be necessary, that I would go with her anywhere and always be by her side regardless, the number of things one truely promises to their dearest friend. The other thing I offered was a promise for the future, that if she wanted I would be hers whenever that would come about. I didn't expect anything more from that, I'm no where near prepared for that sort of thing yet, and I thought it was the best way do get across to her that I am quite serious about her, and no other. She was so stunned, it was lovely, she was so pleased, adn then she said the thing I hadn't thought I would get to hear. She wants to marry me. At that moment the entire world could have fallen away around me and I wouldn't have noticed. Everytime I've seen her since she makes me all fluttery and ridiculous. Its like a tale, perfection incarnate saying they want me to be with them. She'd probably beat me up for thinking such things, but that's what it is like, I never expected to have my love returned quite like that, and I woldn't trade it for the heavens. So father knows, he spoke with Zekk I think and he told him. Lady Tandri knows as well, but I haven't yet told mother. I wanted to ease the two of them into the idea, because right now the last thing either of us need is a big ruckus about it. I think father is going to leave to me to tell mother, and hopefully she'll see my way about the commotion, at least right now. Both myself and Razra have signed ourselves into responsibilities that need taken care of before we get to enjoy this. After that, I don't care who knows and how noisesome they are about it, because there won't be a person living happier then me. ----------------------------------------------------------------- I am once again quite worried about Razra. She's taken her loss without any of the fuss I've come to expect out of ladies, when she has every reason to be in pieces. She has built herself a kind of change of subject barrier in the few times I've tried to open her up a bit. I don't know what to do for her, I know it has to be eating at her, and the best I've come up with is to have her go and visit with her parents. The idea isn't good by any means, but maybe being with someone else who is hurting might give her the incentive she needs to greive on the outside, at least for a short while. It would be easier with her if she would cry shamelessly, or something of the like. Instead I'm in the dark, and my being there doesn't help me find out what to do with her. If she lets something like that sit inside, its going to tear her slowly apart. I don't know what to do for her, so I've been staying close to her with lots of kind words and big hugs, and a worry that never leaves me getting worse and worse. Vince Current Mood: worried

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April 3rd, 2006

12:52 pm - Ezekiel I cannot begin to describe the events that have transpired since the last time I decided to record my decisions. It is better for the long sight of things for me to be scribing this some time after the worst of happenings occured. After the raid on Aetheria, myself, Sophie, and Ryan left as soon as I was able. I spent a short time looking like a child before Sierra arrived to use her spell. After I contacted her Syvani let me know there was another, a little pixie girl of some religeous order that could have managed the same. I do wish he would have said something before, I upset Sierra greatly and she asked that after the last thing she did if I would refrain from contacting her again. We left, once again following Syvani to the tear in space that formed a pocket not too different from the space Sarah had. It was a blinding white with my wing across from us. No more then a few steps towards it did the guardian of it appear, and a successful scan and Izumi's abilities with poison magic kept it from accomplishing much. A favor to us becuase once I had my wing we felt the signature of the one who took it close by. It began normally, with the fecal matter that held the blade which my Ellenor's soul was contained in babbling it's self important idiocy. The others were prepared to fight by my side if neccessary when it threw them back with a wave of energy and my wife and daughter appeared and contained them. That filth mocked me in front of them, telling me how they had been working with it, how everything I had desired, feeling out how to rebuild some semblance of a life with them was nothing more then them keeping it informed as to my actions. It drew on the memories of my Ellenor, using my great love for her against me, having told Alysia of my apparent mortal lover. I cannot ever express the hatred I have against it, I wish there was more I could have done to make it suffer before it tasted its life's end. A loss of a son and the loss of its life was by no means enough of a punishment for my contentment. Izumi and the others broke free of their confines, Izumi summoned a dark army to her side, taking Sarissa out with it before Ethan asked for direction as to what to do. I hesitated before my anger overcame my rational thought, looking for an outlet, and as Alysia begged for her life I gave the others the order to do what was neccessary. Soon after I slaughtered the waste that had Ellenor, stole it's blade, and ended it's existance with it pleading for mercy. Mercy. Right after that moment was the second time I remember ever honestly wishing for death's sweet embrace, just for a second. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- I returned home with the betrayal and my unforgiving actions heavy on my soul, planning to do nothing more then give the wing I had retreived to Reis. I would not have cared if he had tken it and then an instant after used it to help him slay me so long as he would have felt better from it. At the time I had intentions of returning to my mortal life for as long as that may have lasted, and in my state I do not think it would have been long. Micheal reading what had transpired from my demeanor was kinder then he should have been. We spoke briefly, then he asked me to go someplace with him if I trusted him. What else could go wrong? I went with him. And he took me to the Alter of the Gods, a place I heard about from my parents since I was small. He showed me to a pool saying something about questions that required answers, and finding everything I needed before making any decisions. I spent a long time staring into that pool, finding the things I hadn't know I'd needed until that point. I began with how the disaster that had happened originally occured, I watched how Alysia and Sarissa were won over in their time of grief. I also found that Reis had nothing of it, he hadn't even known. I still had a son, and that was enough of a reason in and of itself for me to not turn away from my angelic existance. I asked other things as well, big and small, finding out the reasons behind the strange friendships I had found, how it happened that I was transubstanciated instead of simply meeting my end, when Matthias began tracking me and the reasons behind his actions. All sorts of things, Ellenor staying by my side, the locations of the remainder of my runic deck. I simply sat and observes until I had everything back in hand. I also found a few ways, however unlikely, that I could correct my reckless actions, and give me an oppertunity to make things right with the lady I married and the beautiful girl we had together. I left with my brother with more balance in my head and heart, and steeled myself to explain our loss to my son. I found a better person then I could ever bring myself to be. I told him everything, leaving nothing out, laying myself open for him to retaliate. Instead he told me he wanted me to stay, I could hardly say I would not oblige him and we shared some time together. We've continued to do so as well, I take great pleasure in being around him, I love him, and nothing would have made up for it if I had abandoned him. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- A little further into the now, Ryan changed his generation of the Knights of marintel into something different. He asked me to join him, and making sure he knew what I would be doing, I accepted. His concoction, the Knights of the Realm, consist of him, myself, Sophie, Vincent, and Razra. The greatest concern as a group is the demon Kaine, who has made himself homely on Celestia. After the stunt he pulled there, forcing some abomination of a tree to grow all over the planet, even Aetheria was worried. They have presently sent out the Divine Knights to go and face him, and I fear for Micheal and Matthias' safety for as well as battling the demons, among their ranks are the subordinates of angelkinds failure. Both of them are keeping their eyes on them, and Micheal warning me of their departure gave me an oppertunity to get the newly promoted Reis away so they would not take him with them. Kaine has been causing no end of difficulties, deciding to find a way to force himself into the Archive, an old trove of information kept by the followers of a seclusive order. Ryan has requested a week of training from everyone, I am taking mine dimension hopping, following the trace on one of my other wings, and enhancing my abilities with Realm magic. ----------------------------------------------------------------------- It has been increasingly strange watching the others. Vince apparently found the courage to propose to Razra and Ryan followed suit shortly after with Sophie. They look so young, something I haven't too often felt around them. I enjoy having them with me, but I foresee a time when I will be glad for having been returned to my old position, and when called, my duties. The others know all this, although I don't know if they have put to practical terms yet. I think Ryan has, and I worry, but he knows that there is as likely a chance I will be away from their Knights as with them. At least I do not have to fear for losing them. With the way they are going when I am comfortably sitting at home I will always have company, they are exceptional, and likely to find that once their mortal forms perish they will be asked to take a place among the angelic ranks. Perhaps by the time that day comes I will be able to welcome them with everything whole and mended. Tasks completed, I suppose, and recorded Ezekiel Current Mood: melancholy

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